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It’s gold for Finland

Today is a good day to be Finnish. Last night Finland won gold in the ice hockey World Championships. That’s great but the fact we beat Sweden in the final makes it even better! (That’s because we have kind of a love-hate relationship with Sweden so winning them is the sweetest thing.) Finland won 6-1 so Sweden had no chance. Well, at first they did have and they actually scored the first goal of the final – but after that it was our game. And now all the Finns have went crazy! Well, I guess we deserve it.

OK, that’s it about ice hockey. Weekend was good, me and bf finally invited my brothers and their wifes and girlfriends to our place. I mean we’ve been living here since August and only now they were all here. Ups! Of course my brothers have visited briefly before too but not like this. I made lovely muffins that everybody loved. I also made a cheesecake which ended up in bin. Usually my cheesecakes are delicious but something went wrong with this one and the gelatin didn’t work. So the result was a pile of cake which you couldn’t cut because it didn’t stay in it’s shape. I got so annoyed and my bf’s comments annoyed me even more so before I could think twice I had thrown it into bin. Bf got a bit mad cause he said we could still have ate it but I didn’t care. The whole cake episode just drove me nuts.

That’s the thing with me though – always getting overly excited in good and in bad ways. I guess I’m pretty hot-tempered. This wasn’t the first time I threw something away just out of rage. There’s been cakes and stuff before that didn’t turn out perfectly but were still eatable but weren’t eaten because I lost it and threw it away. I don’t like wasting food and normally I don’t but in these moments nothing holds me back. It’s the same with arguments with bf – I often get overly excited and say things I shouldn’t. He is the same which doesn’t help.

Oh well. Being hot-tempered has it’s advantages though. Things don’t get boring and my relationship stays passionate. Yesterday before our guests arrived we had an argument which led to a session of steamy sex. Sometimes I wonder what do our neighbors think while listening the noises coming out of our flat… “Shut up, you wreck my head … … Oh, that feels so good, don’t stop, ahhhhhh”

What a lovely day

Summer is here, there’s no question. It was warm enough already around Easter time but I think today was the warmest day since the spring started. Temperature was over 20 degrees on Celsius scale which is over 68 on Fahrenheit scale. And my backyard, oh my, there it felt like over 30 because it’s in direct sunlight and there’s no wind. Tomorrow and Tuesday it should be even warmer so I’m a happy girl.

My little friend, my rabbit, was happy too because I took her too out with me. It was her first time this year and she really enjoyed jumping around in the backyard and eating grass. First she was pretty confused but got used to it soon and spent her time exploring her surroundings.

Winter is sooo long and cold here in Northern Europe that it really makes one appreciate spring and summer. People go actually a bit mad when it’s finally this warm because we have been waiting for it so long. Thankfully our summers are usually very nice and warm – if not hot – although in some countries people think we have always snow and ice. Last summer was almost unbelievable, we had very HOT weather for almost two months. And when I say hot I really mean hot, it was nearly too much; you couldn’t do anything without basically swimming in your own sweat. I didn’t complain at all though because I just LOVE hot weather. I’m definitely a summer girl.

Oh yes, Happy Mother’s Day to all the mums! And especially to my own who of course is the best mum in the world. Seriously, my mum is just lovely. I’ve always felt she does everything she can for me and my brothers and is always ready to help. She is loving, warm, smart and beautiful woman and I love her so much. I hope she had a good day today. I think she did because we had a nice Mother’s day lunch in one cool Spanish restaurant. She got a free dessert wine and all. The food was lovely but the best part was their absolutely amazing chocolate cake. I’m known for making brilliant cheesecakes but that nearly won them too. Only nearly though. 😉

So I had a very good day. More than good since later today I met my granny too. I don’t say this often enough but I’ve a great family.

Dog fever

I want to have a dog. Like really really badly. I’ve wanted it since I was a kid but my family couldn’t take one because of my dad’s asthma. And then after I moved out of my parent’s house my life became so unstable that it wouldn’t have been right to take a puppy. Now then… well now my flat is kind of small for two people and a dog. So maybe I’ll still wait until we move out and get a bigger place. Hopefully it doesn’t take too long ’cause I really really do want to have a dog very much.

I’d be ready to take “a rescue dog”. You know, one of those dogs that are looking for a new home for one reason or another. There’s enough dogs in the world and would be great to be able to help one that has been unlucky. But if – and this is only an if – I did end up taking a purebred dog it would be a chocolate labrador retriever. They have a good nature with nice personalities. And they are so cute!

Or can you disagree?

   

Always something more

Why is it so easy to always want something you don’t have instead of being happy with what you do have? I’m not the first or the last person asking this and that only proves how many of us suffer from the same problem. It’s so easy to forget what we do have and always wish for something more. So easy to take things for granted and complain about not having more.

In my life for example, when I think about it I’m sure I’ve a lot more good than bad. I’m healthy and so are all the people who are close to me. I have an opportunity to study what I want and to work in my dream job. I have a loving family and a boyfriend and just right amount of good friends. I have it all…

…so what is missing? I wish I knew the answer. I just feel I want something more. Some kind of excitement, something new, something to be passionated about. I am passionate about many things but right now I don’t feel it. Everything feels just dull and I miss something fresher. I miss having something that I can’t stop thinking about. Something that rules my thoughts.

I was never very good at dealing with everyday life. It’s OK for a while but I’ve always started to get frustrated rather sooner than later. Some people are made for that kind of thing. They love their routines, love their homes, their cooking and cleaning, their everyday conversations, movie nights and all the rest of it. And there’s certainly nothing wrong with that. I enjoy those things too but only sometimes. I actually wish I enjoyed them more. I wish I liked routines more. That I wasn’t such an idealist.

I don’t really know what’s wrong with me or how to cure this kind of an issue. I do know though what would make it better – even temporarily. That would be traveling. It always makes it better. It always calms me down to go somewhere new, to see something I haven’t seen before. Unfortunately I can’t have this medicine right now. I have to stay here and study for at least another month. And then – then I’m going to BF’s home country. Yeah, that is traveling and I’m glad to go, but since it’s a place I’ve been in many times before it’s not quite the same as going somewhere new. But at least it’s something and might make me forget these weird feelings for a while.

I also plan to travel somewhere else after this summer. Somewhere I’ve never been before… somewhere totally new.